Reflecting on My Work Ethic

[hermenoodle]

 So, the last few days, I personally notice of myself that even though I have a mindset of planning versus pantsing with writing, I still see value in having some sort of structure with respect to my tendencies to be distracted for the sake of comfort.

 

That's where that awful cycle of beating myself up comes from.  Though, there's a value to just giving that up for a time to at least focus on what's important to me.   When I do focus on that, getting the results I want or even resolving things that work better for me, I am a lot more satisfied with not only the results but also my own self.  I am proud of my own personal best because of the work I put into whatever project.

 

That's where feeling rewarded feels the best.  I think that's where I need to feel like I'm striving for at times, though sometimes I romanticize it to where I am surprised if the work isn't hard or challenging enough to the perfectionist in me kicks in negatively to make me rethink what I am to do.  This is also a part of that negative cycle.

 

Really rethinking the way I approach my work ethic to myself is more than just thinking about it, but it requires solutions to long term problems that have been lurking about my own self image.  Hopefully, being mindful of how that comes across for myself and others will improve how and why I work the way I do.   

Today, I'm glad I made myself "study" my visual references for my character, Stanley, a Bernese Mountain dog owned by Feivel and his wife, Edith.  I never draw animals a lot, but I'm glad I took the time to try something new (and adorable) so I may be more comfortable in the future drawing this cutie in the coming days.