One thing I find a bit unfortunate about my personality is that I can be easily distracted when I have a good intention to using something new. I get too comfortable, and before I know it, I'm hooked into that thing in all the wrong ways. Such was myself on the likes of a number of websites. Sometimes I did well in deactivating my accounts and not returning. Other cases I returned, but I didn't go crazy like I did the time before. Or better yet, the atmosphere of whom I followed changed my way of interacting with it.
Today, I deleted one account, though I won't say where. I followed a few niche interests I found fascinating or helpful, but I still became attracted to groups and communities based on the latest news, thoughts, opinions, debates, pictures, and videos that took my attention away from what I wanted to do in making meaningful connections with my art. But much of this deals not just my tendency of being distracted and knocked back off of my intentions, but the innate aspect of my human nature that wants the knowledge of good and evil like God.
Truly a dramatic conclusion, but I am not wrong. Everyone has it in one way or another, and we deal with it according to how we interact with our flesh's senses, the world around us, and what we deem morally right or wrong.
For me as a Christian, the choice of following my flesh's impulses and desires versus aligning myself with the mind of Christ is the choice of dragging in negativity or thinking on what's good, lovely, and true. This doesn't mean that a Christian cannot think about hard things. In fact, some Christians are involved in making those things in appealing to the flesh to validate our knowledge of good and evil more than it does confirming what God's Spirit has witnessed in our spirits. I see that a lot on too many types of social media influencing much of the socio-political sphere, sadly, which has degraded the witness of Jesus Christ by own brothers and sisters in the faith. Our worship of God is not just mere praise and worship in church or other places, but it is also how we carry God's name in our interactions with each other, nature, and God.
Some social media, though, can provide positive communities if we truly commit ourselves to it in lifting each other up. In the same site I gave up, I remember a trending post which helped someone not rid of their life, but they gained new ones through people who then provided online and in person support to celebrate them on a special day. So, something like that is a very lovely, good, and true thing to see, and it's reflective of the goodness of God's image we bear to love and respect each other to change our perspectives to look forward to joy. Hopefully, they gained long lasting friendships out of it!
As for me, I've begun to take on a hobby for personally processing where I am spiritually in scrapbooking/art journaling. I don't think I'd bother really sharing such publicly, but it was nice doing such just to slow down more with my reflections with God (aside from little old Dreamwidth and Neocities, which I've grown to like). Sometimes resorting to hobbies you can do with your hands (or even do such initially first) is much better than just hashing out emotions and thoughts online for some things in the end. In the meantime, I'm trying to get back into the groove of traditional art forms I miss doing for some portfolio and practice pieces.
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