Tossing Out Habits & Dreamwidth Discoveries

 Putting in the effort of ridding my bad habits can be very hard when distractions from my mind tend to guide me rather than making an agenda of things to do is something I hate to confess. It's very easy for me to relax than to face the anxiety of a task I must do that I know I can put some time to execute.  However, I am figuring out very slowly on some past issues to amend those bad habits with respect to things that have been neglected in my life and understanding myself better.  A lot of it boils down to how I react to grace when I reason in my mind that I don't need it, which makes me suffer more, thinking that I deserve negative consequences for my actions.  While it may be partially true, that doesn't mean my value should be diminished.  As you can see, reader, I have a lot of work to do on this.

In other news, I've discovered a bit more on Dreamwidth of people having special codes and themes beyond what I've found already!  I had no idea there were so many.  I may consider changing what I have, only that I hope to keep the font that I have with my background pattern on hand with some blue & green combination, which is my favorite.  Aside from my rambling, I hope with some implementation of discipline for my goals, I look forward to putting time for writing fiction and non-fiction essays more often.  I forgot how much I liked doing reviews for books and movies, so I hope to do more of that and getting more active in art communities to practice critiques and to be critiqued (oh dear...the perfectionism is going to be tested here).  Otherwise, I hope to get a few things done before tomorrow's assignment for church.

One last thing on my mind as far as personal projects go, I miss making art of some of my favorite films and shows growing up.  Perhaps that can also be part of the healing process for me in these days as well as taking my time to accomplish things and enjoying them.