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Never Underestimating My Power or Blessings.
Friday, July 5th, 2024 10:47Things have been tough between loss of loved ones, facing my own vices, and my own personal spiritual trials. No matter how much I have struggled with the likes of underestimating myself despite my successes or failures, I shouldn't forget that my existence is good not because I have done good.
It's on the basis of God creating my existence, regardless of circumstance, to be good. It's okay for me to take space in itself. It's also a wonderful thing that I have the skills, interests, and insights that I can give to the world and people around me, even if I've only known them briefly.
Today, someone who remembered me from ArtFight and Instagram last year found me on Tumblr to share some artwork of an original character of mine. They loved the fact that said character reminded them of the world around them and inspired them. They don't even know most of this character's backstory, which I've been developing more this year, but nevertheless, they saw some beauty that I contributed in the world from my mind and heart. It means so much to me that they even reached out to me like that.
I should never doubt my abilities after doing so so many times in my life. It hurts that I've done such, and that's probably because of how the enemy (the devil, that is) has had the pleasure of sowing such doubts in my mind through comparison that I ended up wasting time on God's end and my own. While it's good that I'm learning my lesson on this now than later, I think of loved ones who've gone on before me who would be saddened of this doubt that's persisted so long in my life because they don't see me in the negative way my mind has worked.
Because they've believed in me. So do the people around me. If they can celebrate me, then it's okay to celebrate me as well when the occasion calls for it. It's all a part of God's creational blessing for me to flourish with people and nature.
He said it was good in his word. I believe; help me to rid of unbelief.
It's on the basis of God creating my existence, regardless of circumstance, to be good. It's okay for me to take space in itself. It's also a wonderful thing that I have the skills, interests, and insights that I can give to the world and people around me, even if I've only known them briefly.
Today, someone who remembered me from ArtFight and Instagram last year found me on Tumblr to share some artwork of an original character of mine. They loved the fact that said character reminded them of the world around them and inspired them. They don't even know most of this character's backstory, which I've been developing more this year, but nevertheless, they saw some beauty that I contributed in the world from my mind and heart. It means so much to me that they even reached out to me like that.
I should never doubt my abilities after doing so so many times in my life. It hurts that I've done such, and that's probably because of how the enemy (the devil, that is) has had the pleasure of sowing such doubts in my mind through comparison that I ended up wasting time on God's end and my own. While it's good that I'm learning my lesson on this now than later, I think of loved ones who've gone on before me who would be saddened of this doubt that's persisted so long in my life because they don't see me in the negative way my mind has worked.
Because they've believed in me. So do the people around me. If they can celebrate me, then it's okay to celebrate me as well when the occasion calls for it. It's all a part of God's creational blessing for me to flourish with people and nature.
He said it was good in his word. I believe; help me to rid of unbelief.
