Clarity and Cleansing

[hermenoodle]

A lot can be said about fasting from social media, but when someone does it, even for a short term, there can be a lot learned. For me, it meant to set aside distractions that held me in a lot of anxiety and obsessive compulsion (some of it can be OCD related and other times can just merely be habitual). I took a mere week off and still found anxiety to be an issue, I found facing certain insecurities that set off the anxiety and performance I had from negative voices in my past that I had to let go of. In light of my Christian faith, I found that mentally and spiritually letting go of those through a sort of proxy forgiveness of the bitterness I held of the old memories to have helped me see the humanity in them.

Hopefully, I would want such people in my past who have hurt me, whether in my face or afar to actually change. Maybe they became a Christian themselves. Maybe they also changed because they have a family and are raising their children the right way to be kind and peacemakers. Because I think there's nothing worse than to pass our broken ways to our children to grow up betrayed in a world of hurt and wonder why it isn't working for them when they create those types of memories and children for themselves and with others. As Frederick Douglass once said, "It is easier to build up strong children than to repair broken men." That is why I would want to repair myself first as I even teach the children at the church how to build themselves in God while the time is nigh.